i want you to feel the pain i feel right now, the pain i've felt and tried to hide and tried to ignore but was always there.. lingering like the sketchy man in the back of a dark cafe.. the pain i've felt since the day you walked away.. i want you to feel that ache that burn that deathwish and i want you to feel it magnified to a pain so extreme you break down.. and yet i never, never want you to be hurt. i want you to be safe and warm for the rest of your life and i don't want anyone to have to experience this.
i want someone to break your heart. i want someone to take that red, beating, soulless killer and smash it to a million pieces. i want someone to reach into your chest and yank it out like a baby tooth in slow motion. and yet, i never want anyone to have that power over you. i never want you to love someone, to care about someone, to trust someone anymore than you loved me. i never want anyone to mean more to you than i did. i never want you to love anyone enough that they coul